I’m not sure where your heart is with our world spinning out a bit, but I do know that we are all feeling the weight of this current season in some way.
I packed up all of my things on Friday, filmed a few teaching videos for my students, and began online teaching Monday morning. By lunchtime with my kids and work, I felt like I had lived two weeks already and I went outside to take a breath.
It’s always when I don’t stop that my anxiety catches up with me. When I’m busy, I forget to put guards up to protect my heart and mind from fear and doubt. And as I sat outside, I confessed that I felt scared. I felt out of control. I felt annoyed. I felt disappointed.
Over the past few days, I’ve been focusing on the word, “steadfast.” It is spoken of all over the book of Psalms.
To be steadfast is to be reliable, firmly fixed, immovable, undeviating, constant, strong, permanent, unfailing and without flinch.
“Power belongs to God and that to you, O Lord, belongs steadfast love.” Psalm 62:11-12
I know that in times like this we are tempted to fix, control, understand, and numb out. And in those temptations, I want to remind you to ask God what He wants you to do and ask Him what He wants you NOT to do over these self-quarantine weeks.
If you’re like me, you need to take a step back from social media and the news.
I need to fill my mind with other things right now.
I also need to stay in touch with friends through apps like Marco Polo, Zoom, and FaceTime.
I’m reading fiction to help my mind escape into another storyline.
And, I’m listening to this playlist and writing down lyrics in my journal like it’s my job. My current favorites are “Center of your Love,” “Good Good Father,” and “Always Good.”
Our God is steadfast. We cannot flee from His Spirit. There is no place in the universe where God will not be present to lead and hold you. He has hemmed us in behind and before, we are surrounded by his unfailing, immovable, constant, reliable, steadfast love.